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Realizations [06-25-2012]

They were right that realizations can come to you at any time..
Well, I had one earlier.
You see, I saw one of the politicians that I dealt with when we got the local municipality website creation deal.
And I realized that dealing with these spoiled, over-grown yet distinctive people was what I wanted to do.
Not because I like politicians but because I love the feeling of doing something productive amidst recognized people.
It made me feel special. It made me feel worthy.
It gave me credentials.
It gave me the sense of doing something worthwhile.
And I miss that.

Lately, I have been thinking of giving up my job.
As to the reason, I don’t know which one it is.
There are just too many.
I feel like I am not growing, professionally .
I feel like I am not being productive.
With the local municipality’s website unfinished, I don’t have that feeling of accomplishment.
I feel depreciated.
I feel devalued.
Of course, these are just some of the feelings that I have been going through lately but there is another reason why I want to give up.
I don’t feel happy anymore.

Writing has and will always be one of my greatest passions.
Even if I am not the best writer or the most-effective.
Even if I am not the most entertaining.
My only release is through writing, or so I thought.

Nowadays, I cannot find solace in writing anymore.
It doesn’t please me as it used to.
It doesn’t give me that sense of satisfaction.
Instead, I feel as if there is a foul taste in my mouth every single time I force myself to write.

The thing is.. I don’t want to lose my love for writing.
And I do not want to spread myself too thinly.
But to tell the truth, I have no idea what I am going to do. 

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Tell Me Who I Am <3

I was looking at the various things I posted in the past. And, in one note, I saw this link to a personality test I took three or four years ago. Due to curiosity (if the answers would all be the same), I decided to take the exam again.

Here are the results. :) 

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

**In case you want to check out this personality test, you can check it out at [http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx]

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My BlackBerry-Purpose Driven Life

“This is my official entry to TechPinas.com Gadget Bonanza BlackBerry Power Pair Edition”.

Five years ago I would have said that I am a wanderer with no place to wander to. I was out of school and the only thing that kept me occupied was the lazy afternoons I spent in coffee shops with my friends or the night outs at the hottest clubs in town. And even if I always had the desire to become a writer, I somehow felt like I had no time to really sit down and get to work. Now, however, things have changed. I still love hanging out with my girlfriends during lazy weekend afternoons but it is not the same. And it will never be the same again because now, I have found my purpose in life.

At 22, I got pregnant. And at 23, I became an independent and single mom. Mind you, it is not easy being a single parent. All the tiring days at work, working as a marketing officer for a visa immigration company, and the short weekends I had wherein I had to take care of my little baby boy were not easy.  It would have been so easy to have given up, but I did not. Instead, despite of my busy schedule, I decided to start writing my much-delayed book. I had not only the dream; I also now had the motivation and the inspiration. All I needed was the ideal contrivance to help me transpire all of this into actuality. 

My boss was using a BlackBerry phone and he kept on mentioning that it was in a league of its own. He showed me all of the advantages and could hardly think of a single disadvantage to it. And being in the marketing field, I had to keep myself connected with all our affiliate hotels, resorts, restaurants, travel agencies and tour companies around Cebu City and the Cebu provinces. Apart from this, I also had to keep track of my baby boy’s immunization and pediatric appointments. By using a BlackBerry phone, I realized that I would not only be able to keep up with all of my appointments, I would also be able to find the time to visit friends or to take out my baby boy to the mall.

I no longer work as a marketing executive. Now, I am living my dream and writing for a living. And in my free time, I sell clothes online via my online shopping site on Facebook. But even if I don’t have as much appointments to keep, there are still a huge number of BlackBerry features that I can take advantage of. Now that my son is two years old, I download children songs and interactive applications a few times a week for him to learn how to count and say his A B C’s. If it wasn’t for BlackBerry and the gazillion applications available, I doubt if my son would have been able to identify pictures of lions and elephants and zebra’s. I, on the other hand, use my BlackBerry to download songs of my choice or games to play when times get boring and dull. And since I have relocated to Leyte, it is utmost to stay connected via Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr (text messages and calls are not enough. If you don’t post a comment on their recent status, you better beware!!). Another feature of the BlackBerry phone that I am much thankful for is Amazon Kindle. With E-books at the tip of my fingers, I get to read stories of my liking at any time and at any place. All things considered, I doubt if I would have had this much time to do everything that I need to do if it hadn’t been for my Blackberry and the convenience that it has offered me.

My name is Jackie Louise Mellerup; a daughter, a single mother, a friend, an online seller, an ex-marketing executive and now also, a writer. This is who I am. And this is my purpose in life in which a diffident yet oh-so-amazing phone has made possible for me. Life surely doesn’t get much more convenient or as magnificent as this.

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ambiguïté

Why do some people have to stick their noses into somebody else’s business?

It really ticks me off to see these stereotypes act all pure and innocent when we all make mistakes.

I hate ambiguity. It is neither fair nor real.
I hate it when they do not weigh the consequences of their words and actions.

I hate it when they talk about other people like they have all the right to do so.

They do not understand or grasp the concept of ‘respect’ and ‘privacy’.

I suppose it’s true that these people are just simply inferior.

But so help me God not to stoop down to their level because their ignorance is killing my intelligence.

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